Hang in there, it gets better, you are amongst your own kind here :-)
"The ocean has always been a salve to my soul...the best thing for a cut or abrasion was to go swimming in
salt water. Later down the road of life, I made the discovery that
salt water was also good for the mental abrasions one inevitably acquires on land."
- Jimmy Buffett
The sea, once it casts its spell, holds one in its net of wonder forever.
~Jacques Cousteau
There is nothing like lying flat on your back on the
deck, alone except for the helmsman aft at the
wheel, silence except for the lapping of the sea against the side of the ship. At that time you can be equal to Ulysses and brother to him.
- Errol Flynn
Cheers and good luck
Mrs. Rain Dog