A few years ago I cashed out of a once rewarding career. I got great satisfaction from helping the students, but the peripheral baggage stressed me to the point it affected my health
. The only peaceful waking moment in a day occurred just as I woke. For a few seconds I felt fine, then as full consciousness settled in the weight of my life fell again onto my shoulders. I spent every moment trying to figure out how I could make things better. I thought I had no other choice. I was locked into whole mess, so I thought.
I haven't seen a doctor since my exit physical from the Air Force 25 years ago. I don't take any meds, hope to never do so. But if I had not changed my life the only way I could have coped would have been with medical
help. That would have only postponed the inevitable.
I finally summoned the courage to cash out (instant physical/mental relief), pay off my debt, and move onto my little spot of wilderness that was part of my grandparents farmland. My uncle owns the rest. I built a cabin
and settled in to "be able to have a complete thought" without the distraction of most folks misguided ambition.
I'm convinced it saved my life.
After a year of solitude, and catching up with an old, old friend things started making sense. Thanks to my friend's input I was able to get back to where I had once known I should be...... on a boat.
Dusted off the old Hobie18 and went sailing, and things started making even more sense. I checked the funds balance and started researching monohulls. I continued sailing the Hobie and planned the next chapter in my life.
Now, two years later I sit on my Pearson
typing this. I have no job and less than a grand in the bank, and I don't care. I'm in better health
than the last 10 years and I have a tan.
A couple of days ago several dolphins
around the boat. Yesterday a large osprey flew over with a huge fish
in it's talons, just as a bald eagle swooped in and took it from the osprey. A couple of days from now I'll probably go for an offshore
sail on my birthday.
Life is good, and for me it's certainly not about hedonism or materialism. My sympathies to those for whom it is.