Again, I want to make it clear that I have no judgment on Charlotte's depression. She blogged about suicidal thoughts more than once.
I question Eric's judgment as captain
in setting sail to cross an ocean, especially after this post dated February 3 on Charlotte's blog:
"Two nights ago, still alone while Eric was out of town, I thought about taking my life. I sat there toying with the idea, almost as if the concept
were an egg yolk and I was stringing it back and forth between my fingers, stretching the thoughts from my thumb to forefinger, waiting for the egg yolk to snap. I have no idea how long I had been sitting there contemplating it, until I realized exactly what I was doing: having a conversation with myself about how much better it would be if I weren't alive.
It would be so much easier.
I wouldn't have to deal with any more pain.
I could rest. It would be quiet.
I wouldn't have to talk about it anymore.
But how would I do it? Drowning? No. Pills? Maybe. A knife? No.
What about the girls? They couldn't find me dead; how awful.They need me. I'd have to wait until Eric was home and could take care of them.
What about Eric?
And so my mind cycled, thinking. And then it cycled in an even larger orb around those thoughts and I observed myself thinking it all, realizing that I had never ever been so low that I had such crystal-clear thoughts about just slipping quietly away from life. It was scary. I messaged Eric. I messaged Sariah. I told them what I was thinking. They talked to me until I felt better. Eric got home the next day.
But, really, feeling suicidal was also NOT an outcome we thought about when considering whether to publish the post or not."
(She is referring to the acknowledgement of sexual abuse by her father and the post she wrote about it).
She has never stated whether or not she received mental health care
during these episodes in February.
I very much question whether Charlotte was mentally prepared for the journey, within 60 days of suicical thoughts with an apparent plan of treatment as: medicine, exercise and blogging.
This goes back to those who questioned why Eric went with the family
instead of staying with the boat
, and whether they just gave up on the boat
because after two weeks in: the concept
became too overwhelming, the boat quality was in question and Charlotte's mindset could have been a factor.
Can they prove the satellite phone
SIM card was the one true issue here?
Of course, it remains to be seen. I go back to questioning whether Charlotte is mentally prepared for a lawsuit and trial. I very sincerely doubt Whenever is going to roll over and settle when they have so much to work
with for a defense. That also depends on their legal
counsel and the laws, etc.
This lawsuit has the potential to be very ugly and destructive to the Rebel Heart crew.