I think you need to take a deep breath, step back, and decide what it is that you want, and what it is that you're asking. You seem to be all over the place. You want a captain's license
, but then you just want to be on the bridge, but you want to own and sail your own boat, but you want a job (though I can't figure out what kind of a job). And how can you possibly know that you have "found the right school" when you are still completely unclear about what kind of job you want?
Seriously. You need to slow down and focus!