Gorilla you are not alone.
I get you on the bleak shoreside future especially contrasted with a life on the water
so I would rather keep going with this until the wheels fall completely off.
Will get away soon... enginless most likely. Will be a tall order with this boat but as my cruising budget
will be very tight to non-existent couldn't afford to keep it anyway so I might as well get rid of the damn thing so I can get my scuba certification
and enhace my chances of feeding myself.
Either go engineless and broke or don't go. Since this is a sailboat and I'm a pretty resourceful sailor the choice is obvious.
Won't let it get me down, will just ride the ebb on out.