Well it seems I posted on someone else's topic with my issue so I'll start a new one. I'm currently struggling with life, I was raised in a mennonite family
with private schools and best of everything thanks to my family
who are considerably wealthy. In my family you work
for everything you have, nothing is handed to you. I was a rebellious POS child, I went against everything and everybody. I ended up being a member
of a 1% outlaw motorcycle club for 20 years and somehow got out without being killed. I now teach gang prevention through Christian ministries. Yes I have change my life!! I worked in the construction field and ended up being a project
manager on massive jobsites in the billion dollar range, so I was a very respected consultant at the same time I was a notorious biker. I have a wife and 5 children
as well as 4 grand children
and I'll be 43 years old come this August. My health
went down with severe neuropathy in the feet from uncontrolled diabetes which now I have controlled. I left work
and went out on disability.... Wow I went from a six digit salary to 4k a month and depleted my savings due to another catastrophic event in my daughters life. She had brain tumors and had no insurance
, I ended up paying out of pocket for the surgeries. I own 2 boats... A 42 foot Jefferson and a sea Ray
27 foot cuddy which are now both sold and purchasing
a sailboat. I was just diagnosed with throat cancer and it hit me that I've never completed any of my dreams. My 12 year old son and I wanted to cruise
the world and see amazing things which we were going to do with the trawler
before my life collapsed. Sailing is the only thing I'll be able to afford on a fixed income
. I want to complete the dream and adventure with my son before I go, I've always had a calling to sail the islands and beyond since I was a kid, it's a feeling so strong that it's all I do anymore is research
and watch videos of single
handed sailing. I look at my son and he's so excited but I also see the dis belief in his eyes because so many times in the past due to the motorcycle club his dreams are crushed, yes I know it's me not the club, I made the choice to be involved in that no one else. My entire life I've been a disappointment to everyone, I've started things and never completed them. This time I'm doing it!
I just wanted to give y'all a glimpse of who I really am, I know that God has a plan for me yet and I'm NOT letting him down. The oceans are my home and the destinations are going to be memories my son will never forget, and the work that goes with each passage
will be lessons in life for both of us. Please feel free to criticize me or ask questions. My life is an open book.
" We do not remember days, we remember moments"