Welcome to your Dream.
Could you start slow? weekend trips all along learning
the ropes (oops I mean lines) along the way. Take day sails
and such while you get the boat in blue water
condition. Then the day that your life long companion passes away your door will open for your new journey. By then you will have experience under your belt, your boat will be in better condition and you will be free to venture in what ever direction your heart desires.