You are certainly drenched if not quite drowning with all the bucketsfull of sympathy you are getting in this thread. Such is human nature.
When we hear a cry of pain we prepare to offer comfort and look to see what caused the pain.
It would not cross our minds that what we hear is an actor rehearsing - for example.
Now some 'boring'
- It takes two to tango
- However fine you cut it there are still two sides
- Don't ever pass judgment without hearing both sides (It sounds much better in ancient Greek)
Then some rhetorical questions:
- You say bf was drunk. Were you also drinking?
- You say you jumped ship. Was that just a simple skip from your deck on to the dock?
- Where did your jump end up? Another boat? Another man?
- You say bf took your boat. Did you not in fact surrender your boat by jumping ship? Assuming it was exclusively your boat in the first place.
Your story reminds me of another story:
A young Psychology student conducted an experiment
with her sweet, soft spoken, docile, room mate. She systematically critisized him for everything he did for months, the idea being to make him more assertive.
ended with the man jailed for grievious bodily harm and herself brain dead when he finally lashed out in a rage hitting her repeatedly on the head
What happened to you so far is just so much water
under the bridge.
For the future you may consider that
- In human interaction it is important to hear what the other person is saying -verbal comunication - and to read - non verbal communication - what the other person means.
- A 'dirty old man' does not neccessarily make a good mate and vice versa.
going so I'll stop here.