So I went and looked at the boat
, I like the boat.
I really like the Spencer for how it is laid out. It is very comfortable to me.
That being said if I buy it right now I would have to move my time table forward several months, not so sure I am ready to do that which right now is my only major hesitation.
Currently I am at Little America in Wyoming headed for Denver then home to Montana after I unload Monday.
Right now I am just physically and mentally exhausted it has been a really long 3 1/2 months and it isn't over yet, still have about 1000 miles to go to get home. I could feel the pull this morning when I crossed over I-15 because if I turned north on I-15 then hopped on 287 id have been home in about 6-7 hours.
Heading further away was very difficult.
One of the first things I did when I got to the boat was to sit down in the back of the cockpit
Sitting there was very comfortable to me and I could see myself spending a lot of time there. Actually the whole boat was very comfortable to me, I wanted to just kick up my feet and stay and say to hell with going back to work.
I see myself being very comfortable in this boat. I know if I can't make this one work I will be looking for another Spencer 42, it is about the ideal boat for me.
Right now though I am so burned out from fighting my way through a weak freight market the last few months, having some really expensive breakdowns and all of the drama that surrounds that, I need a couple of days of rest before I really start formulating a plan.
To make matters worse my dad is very against me getting a boat and about went ballistic when I told him what I was thinking about doing, I got the "A boat is just a hole in the water
you throw money
into, and if you could just get a little house I think you would be so much happier."
It still has not sunk in to him that buying
a little house, getting married and having kids
is something I am just in no way shape or form interested in.
He could tell when I got really quiet I was about to hang up the phone
on him so he back tracked some with the "I just want you to be happy" speech.
He doesn't understand the reason a boat is so appealing to me is that it is not tied to any one place like a house is and I can take my home with me where ever I may roam and this is something I have wanted since I was a little kid.
On the upside when I get back to MT I have a whole bunch of film making gear
I just bought there waiting for me so that is going to really help me make some better quality videos with better light and better sound.
Right now though I just feel like I could sleep for days.